I dont know why..once i heard she say her friend coming to HK to visit her.. The first thing, is that i feel losing in touch with her, cos since her friend visit her..of cos must accompany her wasnt it? And i admit i gt some selfish thought just nw. But ue can see the time is already getting lesser for us le. Each and everyday for the both of us to just webcam wif each other.If ue would say she's in SG ..i wont be that sad like what i'm just now..crying as if the world is tearing apart..but really very heartbreaking to heard she and her mum think that i bcos of this small thing already cnt take it..den if future, i will just commit suicide? small thing ue mean? already been working and study continously on weekday and cnt slp afterwards cos really have to spent time with her if nt wont have time to be with her le..only weekends off to accompany her.. Then if her friends come hw will have time for me? since she still schooling only can use the time she been with me on webcam spent wif her friend since her friend come..den wat about me? i aso nid her care..her time to spent with me.. i noe is like want her stick to me..doesnt wanna let her go.. but i really wanna accompany ue..in the past ue never even think that way? why must till now ur friend come le..den ue think i treat ue like my property? do ue noe hw hurt it is to think i am like this? did i complaint whenever ue ask me nt to..and did i say i wanna accompany my friends instead of ue? never! i never even say ue that way..why do ue nid to say something so hurt to me.. i start to feel the pain.. feel that i am just a pester again! i thou loving ue so much..care for ue so much..spent time with ue whenever i can is wat i can do to feel that i really love ue but why would ue think this way? never thou ue would say this to me at all ..in my life when ue say ue really love me so much! I'm hurt, bi! i really suffer so much le..my past..even sometime really wanna give up working so hard..but bcos of ue i have to..i wanna be wif ue..with ue forever i mean it..from the beginning .. i really love ue! ='( - at that time i fear i would lose ue..i so scared ue would breakup wif me - my heart shatter into pieces -