Seriously today i wont be writing about anything good at all, only that the days is getting nearer and left 10days before our fantasy comes..but the days we been through wasnt that good at all..cos it was all my fault! I dont know what really happen to me, I really hope i could change it but it was not like i purposely wanna fall asleep just like that in the middle of the conversation, it just a blink of eyes i fall asleep le...is it my body start to break down or what? When the time i wanna sleep and can sleep but yet cant fall asleep and keep waking up in the middle of the night..kinda very pekchek leh! (!@$#) I want like normal ppl like that..i wasnt like that before de ..it was like suddenly so easily fall asleep whenever i lie down..and bibi always ask me if i wanna slp just let her noe not just slp whenever i want if not she'll feel angry.. but not i dont want tell her i want sleep de..is i dont really wanna slp when i lie down but i just wanna close my eyes but i eventually just fall asleep..hais dont really noe hw to explain..anyway it's my problem,bibi ..if ue really angry with me..go ahead and scold me if it can make ue feel better dont have to feel that ue are hurting me..okay? i just want ue be happy..this stupid problem i will solve it from this 10days.. i scared if i really dont change this..really will effect our relationship! I dont want that to happen..even i cant i will force it by all mean.. I swear this time..after i saw ur blog i noe..and always feel it wasnt ur fault and why ue blaming urself it is me who just fall asleep just like that..not ue! and ue noe i want to spend time with ue but cant have enough sleep but if i will to tell ue i wanna sleep, I noe ue will understand it and let me but i just dont want ue alone, i afraid that ue will think other things and feel lonely..ue're someone i love..and wanna be with i dont want ue to feel it that way, bibi i hope ue can trust me one last time..forgive me will ya? =(