8 days left before my fantasy comes, I finally manage the time when to sleep when not to..cos always been sleeping in the middle of the conversation with my bibi on webcam for the past few weeks le..now at least i took the break time of mine go sleep instead of going home using lappy liao..like that wont be that tired when bibi come home from school when she wanna talk or play games with me althou i did fall asleep ytd for a min or two? LOLS! at least i'm improving le okay,bi? cos I doesnt wanna disapointed my bibi..even still tired still have to force it untill work! ha!ha! cos I want see my bi to smile and be happy can le =) .. I dont wanna see that sad face right on her face again! Dont want see her cry ever again! my heart feels so pain whenever she cry.. Just yesterday night when bibi called me, something happened my bi went talking to her friend in the middle of our conversation on the phone and after I seen her blog, i dont know why got this kind weird feeling..like I kinda not that important/close than her that "friend".. dont noe why~ am i been jealous of her close friend? LOLS! and i told my bibi that if she call me that time, she must be free already nothing to do going to sleep le so wont be anything bother her le..does my words hurts her? sorry.. =( I just wanna say what was really in my mind cos I want her to understand me better..not want her to listen mine or scold her..and i believe and trust her, wont hurt me like the past..and hope bibi would forget about those past of hers..kinda dont like her to keep recaping of the past..cos i always thought i could took her away from her past or is it I'm not good enough to do that? cos recently she been saying and posting about her past and been emo-ing .. i dont wanna our feelings fade away bit by bit! >.< (like just this morning and ytd night on the phone, kinda both of us speechless) haix! Bi! promise me forget about the past and stay happy by my side forever never to let go can? I really love you,my love (L) <3